two years to answer

AmAn ShAh
04/22/2008 10:00 am
thanx jijah...camner skrang??
bila abeh study??

iTayRusMahS
04/22/2008 4:52 am
nak blanja mkn no hal tp jauh 2, beribu-rigbu batu.. merentas awan dan lautan hehe
bila nk abih study?

These are my friends comments in Friendster. I hope I can give a happy answer exactly two years from today. Hmm, don't forget to ask me again that time...

I guess there's no harm to congrats my housemates; Kak Ila and Kak Zura. They already finished their final year exam yesterday. I was so happy to see them coming home smiling (I was off-ward this week to make way for their exam, yeay!). Even though the official result will only published on Thursday night, I have a good feeling that both of them will make it through.

And I, I have my final exam for a few courses next month; Clinical Pathology, Pharmacology, Microbiology. And the as a bonus, we also have OSCE. Hehe...

Update:
I am currently working on Surat-surat Perempuan Johor by Faisal Tehrani (with Ezzah screaming in the background "weh, nak exam studi la!!")

don't read

I am emotionally tired.
Losing interest on many things that used to excite me.
I wanna sleep.

Heh, what I really need? I know sleep alone won't help. I will wake up feeling exactly the same if not worse.

I know... I gotta be strong. Never to run away. Hehehehe... yeah right! I am strong as long as I am not challenged. The moment I got to fight, I am ready to collapse... huh!

Actually, I am truly sorry for this page. I think it has turned out to be the official dumping site of my bad feelings and thought. And, I kept the good for myself *evil smile*

Enough. The more I type, the more neurotic I become. (Hey, wasn't I perfectly stable just few moments ago? I think some bad witches must have put a bad spell here.)

Gotta go! Too much contamination. I better save my (partly functioning) mind.

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the dua'

Thank you Allah for giving me a good 2-week break from my routine.

I got away from hospital for two weeks. Yes, I still got to go there everyday for psychiatry & psychology lectures but at least it was a different environment. Was the hospital very bad that I come to be glad to have to attend up to 6 hour lectures a day rather that tagging along the medical or surgical team in hospital?

I don't want to answer. It made no difference anyway.

Again, I had a tiring but wonderful weekend this week. Thank you Allah.

Tomorrow I'm starting a new rotation; orthopaedic service in AMNCH. I pray to Allah that He help me through this rotation, lift up the heaviness from my heart and put smile on my face. He and He only is my protector.

O Allah I pray to You, please gather me with the people I love in this world and in Your jannah.

Ameen ya Rabbal 'alamiin...

a weekend full of inspiration

Yes, you can't identify which of those inspired faces belong to me. I certainly know where I sat, thus I can tell which one.

Alhamdulillah. It was not an ordinary event, and I am very grateful that I was chosen by Him to be part of them. I learnt a lot.

Thank you people, may Allah bless your sacrifices. Ameen.

broken for renovation

It has been a different week. A break from the routine means a touch of anxiety. Yes, I know I've always been anxious. In fact I am a very anxious person. Anxiety is not something that is always bad. It can do good, even though it gives you palpitations.

The good side of it, it forces me to get as prepared as I can for something, and I always put my safety first. So, there would be no worries for my mother that I would break my neck or engaged in any dangerous activity.

Now the flip side of the coin, not good... the most obvious adverse effect is anxiety causes you (i.e me) unnecessary worries. I got nervous for unbelievable reason. I still remembered an occasion where my friend just can't believe I tremble while practising in clinical skills room. Hellooo~ it's just a practice. Not even a test, let alone an exam. Ah, if I were to list the situation that can sent my heart electrical activity to complete bizarre... you'd be fast asleep before even near the end of the list. Exaggerating, am I? I am not trying to convince anyone here. Just letting my (I don't know) go.

This week.
This is the first half of our 2-week Psychiatry and Psychology Applied to Medicine + MedLine Ethics + a bit of related Pharmacology Course. It went on well. Very well I have to say.

One good news that I would like to share here, I got my first real assignment. To make it even more thrilling, it contribute 10% to our final year Psychiatry marks. I actually got really excited. Though it is not easy (I'm still struggling to keep the ball rolling) I am still hold on to my determination to accomplish something that can put a smile on my face when I recall it in the future.

This weekend.
5th Medical Symposium organised by IMAM.
Here's the secret: I'm not particularly looking forward to sacrifice my highly-savoured weekend, but I really want to break some more routine this time while holding tight to my heart, don't break.

~A smile goes a thousand miles~